my two beloved boy bestfriend..

aritue dok jnji nk skype dgn jajat.. beriya dok berwhatsapp nk skype bagai.. penat tggu x on9 pn mamat tue, i end up skype dgn aten as usual.. hahaha.. pagi td saya pn gi la menconteng wall jajat.. konon nk marah la nie, lps tue x usha pn fb, ble bkk fb tgk2 afiq comment.. this is why i love them.. hahaha.. lawak gler kot comment afiq.. muka cina, tp jnji still melayu.. LOL!!! the comment that made my day.. :D

p/s: jajat ckp mlm nnt nk skype, mari tgk apa jd.. :P

ze blue heel

sebagai seorg yg pendek dan bulat, saya sgt menggilai kasut tinggi. yelah org x cukup tggi nk cover tggi msti la pki high heels kn.. one of the highest heel that i own is this blue heel.. tgk gmbr pn tau tggi kn.. i really love this heel, eventhough x blh pki slalu psl mcm x logic kn pki kasut nie on daily basis and kt sni jarang jer ada aktiviti2 yg ala2 prom nite gitu.. ada la 2 kli pki kot, tue pn masa raya.. dan sekarang saya dlm dilema, sama ada nk jual kasut nie masa garage sale on this sun or bwk blk msia.. kalo bwk blk msia pn bknnya dpt pki selalu pn, ntah2 end up jadi permainan nana jer nnt.. tp kalo nk jual sgt syg, mana nk cri heel mcm nie kt msia ooo.. kalo ada pn, it'll cost me a lot kot.. should i or should i not bring this heel blk msia? maybe i can wear it mse reunion yg konon2 nk buat ala2 prom nite hujung tahun nie (padahal nie bru plan jer kot, ntah2 x de org pn dtg nnt). argh,, streeesssss (sila gayakn dgn nada gary dr runningman ya).. mcm mne nie???

soul sista

was skyping with my soul sista ble ttbe jer tenet dia bengong, nme jer pki unifi.. :p (tgk la nnt aku blk jb nnt msti tenet pn shitty mcm ko pnya tenet kan )

[17/01/2012 1:03:16 AM] fatinsyazana: haha.great skype great.
[17/01/2012 1:14:45 AM] *** Call ended, duration 42:57 ***

one hour later...

[17/01/2012 2:33:09 AM] fatinsyazana: bebe
[17/01/2012 2:33:14 AM] fatinsyazana: ur back on9
[17/01/2012 2:33:17 AM] fatinsyazana: haha
[17/01/2012 2:33:22 AM] fatinsyazana: or im back on9?
[17/01/2012 2:33:49 AM] fatinsyazana: sedihnya kte nie mcm xde jodoh
[17/01/2012 2:33:53 AM] fatinsyazana: drama x aku?hahaha
[17/01/2012 2:34:08 AM] *** Call from fatinsyazana, duration 31:11. ***

we could talk for hours smpi x de topic nk borak pn still nk borak lg.. kdg2 terpk gak apa yg ktorg dok borak smpi berjam2 hari2.. almost everyday kot..

dear gajah,
here's something for you. dlu masa mula2 knl ko aku x expect pn kte blh jadi rapat mcm nie. eleh, ngaku jer la ko pn x expect kn, kn kn... lme jugak la bru kte rapat kn. i think lpas our family camping kot. btul ke? correct me if i'm wrong tau.. thanks to family, i found you. we've been through a lot. and u were always there for me, and i'm always there for u too kn.. hehe.. rindu sgt zmn2 taylor dlu, kalo aku lapar, ko msti tmn aku ngeteh kt mamak bombay even if it's 12 am in the morning.. kalo aku tension, ko tmn aku gi melalak kt summit.. kalo aku rse nk nanges, nnt aku ketuk jer pintu bilik ko, even ko tgh tdo pn ko lyn gak aku.. kalo aku terasa nk buat bnda2 gila, ko willing jer nk tmn kn.. plg aku rindu ble bgn pagi2, dh la dua2 pn kaki bgn lmbt, smpi kte ada duplicate kunci rumah each other to make sure that we both bgn for class kn.. mse aku ada crisis dgn family, ko x psl2 jd mangsa involved gak.. kn dh free2 diorg ckp aku rampas ko dr diorg.. sorry for that bebeh.. x mau la tles pnjg2 nnt lg haru jd dia.. i just want to say, i'm so thankful to have u as my bestfriend. dgn ko aku blh cter apa jer. i love u soul sista.. :))

dropping by for awhile

dear bestie,

sorry for the long absence, life had been so hectic lately. promise i'll update as soon as i'm back in msia. can't wait to spend time with you. to tell u everything.wait for me okay. love you :)

10 sebab kenapa saya suka dia

1. he's older than me, walaupun cuma 40 hari jer.
2. dia lagi gelap dari saya.
3. he knows how to play music.
4. he's very hard to get.
5. dia bukan jenis layan perempuan, susah sgt nk tgk dia ckp dgn perempuan yg bkn classmate dia.
6. he's romantic?? (ex dia yg ckp)
7. his eye.
8. his smile.
9. his words.
10. ...... (biarlah rahsia)


i've realized that i've never actually gotten over you. i really regret the fact that we've never had a real conversation. if one day our path meets again, i wish things would be different.

First Impression

korg slalu x kalo mcm borak2 pastu ttbe mcm org tnya apa ekh first impression ko kt aku? msti pernah kan. biasanya soalan nie ditujukan bila korg mcm dh rapat sket dgn org tue kn. maka mcm2 la perkataan yg keluar. nme lg first impression kn. so today, topic post ini adalah mengenai first impression org kt aku. habis takkan la kt korg plak kn, sapa yg baca blog nie pn aku tau, mcm mne la aku nk tau first impression org kt korg kn. ouh, aku mmg syok sndri kn, but wait, nie kn blog aku so msti la cerita psl aku. aku bknnya blogger terkenal mcm maria elena atau pn blogger2 lain, so most of the stuff that i wrote on my blog msti la psl aku instead of psl bnda2 lain. bagi anda2 yg x berminat nk tau, mungkin x perlu teruskn pembacaan anda dr skrg.

1. pendiam

hahaha.. so much for pendiam la kn. smue org yg ada first impression aku nie pendiam smuenya terpedaya, muahaha.. hebat tak lakonan mak. LOL, ok2, i have an explanation for this, sebenarnya kn i nie kn pemalu la.. OMG!! LOL LOL LOL. honestly, mmg aku nie sbnrnya seorg pemalu dgn org yg aku x knl. gler ke apa dan buat kpale gila ttbe dgn org yg first time jmpe, karang kne cop minah sewel la plak. i'm actually a loser at making friend. msti org lain yg kne start dlu tau tak. kalo org tue x start tegur aku dlu sampai ke sudah la mmg aku x tegur dia. jgn salah faham ekh, bkn sombong tp aku mmg simply x reti la nk make the first move, sbb tue la aku ckp aku nie loser at making friend. so biasanya kalo ada event, hang out, or apa2 jer yg mutual friend korg bwk kwn, aku akn jadi manusia plg pendiam. minah yg pitching dia high nie blh jadi senyap mcm tikus ttbe tau. but once people get to know me better, aku nie sbnrnya bising sgt. suara high pitch x reti nk control volume kot.

2. pemalu

sila rujuk al sebab wal musabab di atas. and addition to the note. aku adalah manusia yg kalo berckp (terutamanya dgn lelaki) mmg x reti nk pndg mata diorg, sorry la bab2 eye contact nie mmg aku fail sket. i'm not the type of girl yg religious yg jaga pandang tue (sorry if i offended anybody with this statement), tp aku mmg x reti la bab2 eye contact nie, so kalo aku ckp dgn korg smue tp x pndg korg, jgn mrh plak or rase mcm aku x welcome korg or aku x ske korg pnya kehadiran (hamboi perkataan dia) plak. it's just that aku mmg fail bab2 eye contact nie dan percaya la bkn kt laki jer tp kdg2 kt perempuan jugak, cuma dgn laki aku lg x reti la nk bereye cntact2 nie. almaklumlah takut dr mata turun ke hati (ececece). mungkin jugak psl aku dr all girl school so aku lbeh terbiasa dgn kehadiran perempuan di samping aku, that makes me more comfortable to make eye contact and talk to them to be compared to the guys.

3. manja?

manja? ok aku mengaku aku seorg yg manja tp utk org sedar itu for the first time and as a first impression that's kinda "awkward?" (sbnrnya x tau perkataan apa yg sesuai diletakkn). jujurnya dlm ganas2 aku nie, yes aku adalah manusia yg sgt manja, percaya tak aku pernah ckp phone dgn sorg kawan aku and dia tegur aku mcm nie, "boleh tak jgn ckp manja sgt, tercabar iman aku". since then mmg x la aku ckp phone dgn dia kn. sbnrnya kn aku pelik jugak ble org org ckp aku manja as a first impression psl bnda tue la yg plg aku sorok ble first time aku knal org, x mau la nnt org ckp aku gedik kn. aku manja psl aku dibesarkn dgn a very big family yg sgt suka manjakn aku, bkn jer mama dgn ayah jer yg manja kn aku tp smue org, umie, atuk, auntie, uncle. mak lang, kak ina, mak su, basically smue la, and aku bukan hanya dimanja oleh family aku jer, tp dgn kwn2, dan kakak2 aku. sbnrnya aku x de kakak kot, ada abg pn sorg jer, tp sepanjang aku kt tassie aku dpt rmi sgt kakak. i'm just so happy that god blessed me with love from everyone. terima kasih tuhan, terima kasih juga utk smue yg mencurahkn kasih sayang mereka kepada aku. dan percayalah sesungguhnya manja aku bukanlah dibuat2, dia mmg keluar sndri. x de niat lgsg nk menggedik atau tergedik2 nk bermanja ya. so pada siapa2 yg aku termanjakn diri tue, please dont take it negatively, take it positively, i'm just sharing my love to you. :)

4. ganas

well mostly bdak2 sekolah rendah aku la yg ckp aku ganas. aku mmg kaki buli waktu kt skola rendah dlu, aku plg igt waktu darjah 2 aku gaduh dgn sorg bdak nie nama dia ain, aku blasah dia pki penyapu kot. kesiannya budak tue. sorry la awk, saya membesar dgn abg2 jer, tue yg saya pn terikt2 perangai diorg. aku membesar kt johor, dibesarkn mstila oleh mak bapak aku, dibantu unie and atuk aku, and i'm the first granddaughter la dlm family haji abu bakar, makanya sy dibesarkn dgn abg2 sy, saya x main la barbie2, masak2 nie smue. as far as i could recall i dont even own satu pun cik barbie. aku main guli, gasing, layang2, nasib baik la sungai pandan tue x blh mandi (smue slh kilang yoe's), kalo x msti mndi sungai pn termasuk dlm agenda kecik2 dulu kan. ntah la, aku kecik2 mmg sgt nakal. kne blasah dgn belalai vacuum tue dh biasa sgt. kne rotan dgn en roduan si guru besar tue x payah cerita la kn. tp kn, tue smue kenangan yg sgt indah utk aku. all i can say, i don't have a dull childhood. :D

5. ayu?

ha! yang tang nie mmg pelik sket, nk komen byk2 pn x tau nk komen apa2, all i can say is mostly yg ada first impression aku nie ayu adalah org2 tassie. maybe psl kt cni aku jaga perangai sket kot. see, i'm good at acting up. dpn org msti la sopan santun kn.. ahaks. omg! gedik syial. no no no. honestly, sbnrnya i nie x de la ayu dan sopan santun mana pn, tp i nie tgh la nk berubah dr awek ganas yg selekeh, pki tudung selempang, tshirt dgn jeans jer kpd awek yg lbeh ayu gitu pki skirt bagai. tiada niat utk memancing mana2 lelaki utk dijadikan bakal suami ya, tetapi yelah usia dh menginjak nie kne la berubah sket kn, takkan nk selekeh2, lpas tue buat perangai ganas2, tue dh x senonoh sgt la rupanya. i'm not 10 years old anymore.

6. garang

nk buat lagu mana muka saya mmg garang pn.. sowie la ya, sy x garang pn. kdg2 jer.. ;D but logically mati la saya kalo dgn smue org x knl pn sy kne senyum kn. mmg la senyum itu sedekah tp karang kalo dok senyum jer mau org ckp saya sewel kn..

7.comel

ok nie last one la. comel adalah perkataan yg paling common yg aku slalu sgt dgr. and trust me org ckp aku comel bkn la psl aku nie muka comel ala2 lisa surihani dgn heliza helmi tue. aku rse org dok ckp aku nie comel psl aku nie gemuk. logik la kan, takkan la ko nk ckp dpn org tue, ouh first impression aku kt ko adalah ko gemuk. mau kne pelangkung kt situ jugak. di sini saya ingin menyelitkan sedikit nasihat kepada anda smue, kalo awk tue x gemuk (dlm erti kata lain bmi anda adalah normal atau underweight), x pyh la nk perasan diri tue gemuk sgt. kecik tau hati kami2 yg gebu nie. cbe byg kn kalo korg gemuk abes tue ktorg nie apa? comel (sesungguhnya ayt tue sgt la tak menyedapkn hati ktorg). anda sepatutnya bersyukur yg anda dikurniakan badan yg just nice gitu pasal kami sgt bersyukur yg kami dilahirkn sihat (ayat penyedap hati sndri). anda sgt membuatkn kami sedih bila anda cakap anda gemuk. :'( be proud of yourself, x pyh la nk diet smpi tinggal tulang, x cantik pn awak2 smue.

ok la, saya mahu stop menulis skrg. ttbe teremo psl gemuk2 nie. i sensitip tau. for now, hugs and kisses people. <3

Jump!

kami gembira.

it's weekend! time to go crazy!!

muahaha!! it's weekend bebeh! masa utk berehat dan melayan kegilaan kepala. so for those people who doesn't know, it's summer here in tassie which means the sunrises at 5am in the morning. halo! pukul 5 pagi matahari dh naik tinggi-tinggi. pukul 5 pagi dh terang gler kot. so no more sleep sleep ok! time to wake up and start your day. And since it's weekend i decided to memanjakan diri sndri. fill up the bathtub and make some mask. ouh2, i got my homemade mask recipe from here. you guys should so try them someday, it's very refreshing bebeh.

me wearing homemade mask! i look like a thug. sapa mau gado? ada beran??

after applying the mask i went straight into the bathtub. berendam dlm air panas smbil baca novel. super relaxing bebeh. then me and my roomate went out to the city. jalan2, usha barang, mostly gadgets. i really want the xbox! it was on sale but i'll wait for boxing day, who knows it'll get cheaper right and i played with the new nokia n9.

it's super duper awesome. maybe i'll buy it soon.. hehe..

well i'm not a big fan of touch screen phone but this one, there's something so special bout it. maybe because it's nokia. my all time fav phone brand. for those people who doesnt know, i'm using BB curve now. i love it but nokia n9 btul2 mencabar keimananku!! argh.. well, we'll see how it goes ok, i'll just wait until i cant resist it anymore, for now i'll just stick with my buah hati BB. :)

it was a fun day out! and now i'm tired already. time to take a nap. ouh2 while waiting for my roomate, she was buying a printer and i waited inside the car to make sure that we dont kena saman, i did some camwhoring.

hehe. okay muka mmg mintak pelempang kan. hey hey suka hati la. nie blog i ok. dh i rse nk upload muka i yg tak lawa n mintak pelempang nie. kalo x suka tgk kt atas tue ada butang X kn. sila la klik. hehe. enough of merapu for today. me wanna take a nap. good night uols. till then, hugs and kisses love :)

muchas gracias

it's been awhile since I started to blog again but as I mentioned in an earlier post, I was inspired by my bestie to start blogging again. For all this while my blog had always been more on my private life and what's going on with my life, basically my blog is like my diary, an open diary where everyone could read. well actually when I started to write this blog, it's more like a trend back then. everyone I know have a blog. Back then those who doesn't have a blog is like so LAME. LOL! That was so 2008 right. So i traced back my oldest post. It was 1st August 2008. The day that I started this blog, actually before this blog I had a few others blog that I end up deleting. I wonder how this one manage to survive for more than 3 years. Hurm??

I really miss 2008, those college time were the time of my life. I had the perfect college experience with all my lovely, wacky and crazy friends. Almost everyone I knew back then owns a blog. Blog was so sensational back then. Everyone was so updated with everyone's blog. Blog was like the best way to stalk people back then. Everyone will always update what they were doing in their blog. From the smallest little thing to the biggest news and gossip in their life. And eventually blog became a way to bash up other people too. So what if one doesn't agree with you, you don't really need to use blog as a way to bash people. Seriously, I was hurt by some people blog or comment and I believe others may have been hurt by my words too. That's one of the thing that I learned from my blogging experience which I really hope I would not repeat again.

Seriously I need to grow up. I used to blog when I'm emotional which leads to unwanted words being said( in this case wrote). For all those people that was hurt by my words, I'm really sorry. And if you guys are wondering why only say sorry and not take off those posts? Well, I look at it as a personal reminder to myself. As I stated earlier, my blog is more like a diary to me, of course when you write your diary you won't rip those pages of when you're not happy with what you wrote right.

Lastly, i would like to thanks everyone who reads my blog. Lately, there's quite a lot shoutout I got from you guys who was blogwalking here. I really appreciate your visit. I'm just a simple girl writing bout my life yet there's still people wanting to visit my blog. For you people, muchas gracias. You guys inspired me to write more. So anticipate more from me soon. Till then, hugs and kisses people :)

Isn't he the sweetest!

“Zahiril berpura-pura terjumpa kertas dalam tuxedo, ketika itu Shera sedang khusyuk mendengar lagu I will always love you – ungu, yang dinyanyikan abang Zahiril, tiba-tiba Zahiril bangun dan menujukan puisi buat isterinya, yang magisnya ada mic tersembunyi dalam tuxedo beliau” “Aku pasti punya masalah tiap kali ingin menulis puisi buatmu. Entah kenapa, kuasa cintamu lebih hebat dari kata-kata yang akan terkeluarkan. Saat itu langsung aku setuju yang dirimu satu. Dan hari ini kau telah menjadi isteriku. Ampunkan aku kalau aku pernah berkasar, Ampunkan aku kalau aku pernah mengherdik, Ampunkan aku kalau aku pernah menjerit, Ampunkan aku kalau aku pernah terpekik, melolong, Isteriku, percayalah sebabnya ialah kasih dan cinta. Akan ku jaga kau seperti ku jaga diriku sendiri, Memang hidup itu tidak pernah ada jaminan keselamatan, Bahaya, ancaman di mana-mana. Tapi selagi kau dalam dakapanku, Aku berjanji akan menjagamu. Setiap saat dan waktu, Setiap siang dan malam, Setiap guruh dan hujan, Setiap panas dan terik. Setiap nafasku. Aku sering menadah telapak tangan dan memohon pada Tuhan agar kau, bukan sahaja menjadi isteriku tetapi menjadi isteri yang disayangi Allah Ta’ala. Isteriku, Selamat datang ke hidupku, Selamat menjadi isteriku, Selamat menjadi ibu pada anak-anakku kelak, Selamat menjadi menantu ibu bapaku, Selamat menjadi adik dan kakak pada adik-beradikku. Selamat menjadi keluargaku, Selamat menjadi pelengkap hidupku. Selamat menjadi separuh dari aku.”

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